Friday, May 25, 2012

Sweet Silver Lining

I Will Always Love You

There are people whom you come across once, maybe twice, in a lifetime, if you're lucky. They change how you feel about yourself, they change how you feel about love, they change how you feel about human nature. They restore your faith in the goodness of a person, in kindness, in the ability to love.. to love selflessly and truly and wholly.

I am lucky enough to have such a person in my life. And I am lucky enough to have loved him, to have him love me, and I know we will always love each other. Sometimes though, life doesn't work out the way you want it to. Things change, people change, they grow... sometimes upward, sometimes downward, sometimes sideways. It's not always for the better, but it's for a purpose. And so you have to rearrange your life in an unexpected, and unwanted way. But, to remain true to yourself, you have to do it.

Change brings tears. But, as AA Milne once wrote in his classic (and one of my favorite) books, "Winnie the Pooh":  "How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard."

And it's not a real goodbye, because I know we'll always care for each other and hopefully we'll be close friends. But, it's a goodbye to the life we once shared together.

"And so I come in here and I sit in silence and hear the echoes of who we used to be. And so I wish for patience, and grace, and strength to help him be happy. Mostly I pray for the strength to not make his life worse because of what I want. That's the toughest part, letting go, you know? That's the part of grace that really sucks."

S, I will always love you

But, we can and we will get through this. And I know that in the end, we'll be "cool"...  S, I will love you always! XO